Let me say something about 紅白 this year.
Okay, fine, I am biased and I tends to take small things seriously. Still, I am mad. So mad. And so angry.
Is this becuase I don't understand Japanese language or was it really misleading in the program? I thought voting would weight a lot in deciding which side wins. If the popular vote result is only two points out of 15 possible points, why bother hyping people to vote, Why kept encouraging ppl to vote, why kept reporting/updating the scores? Becuase it won't matter. You have 9 judges out of 11 voting for red team already. It doesn't matter viewers vote 4.2 mil for white team against 2.5 mil for red. Because those differences won't really count.
Gosh, this sucks. Big time.
It must be what Hillary voters felt like when Trumph won. It sucks.
It's probably totally in my head but I felt Aiba was very stressed over this hosting responsibility. He must have been pretty worried. So I felt like NHK (or whoever jackass that was) just tortured my ichiban and robbed him of some consolation he deserved.
9 out of 11 judges?!? What the f---.
See, I am angry. I don't go around doing WTF anymore these days. I am too old. But tonight, they got the better of me. I fucking hate it.
The worst thing is Arashi performed at Johnny's countdown without Aiba.
I am sooooo angry. Fine no one cares. Whatever.
So much for Arashi always perform as 5. Why don't they do a recorded performance? Fine, I can come up with many excuses why they won't- why they choose to perform as 4 with Aiba face on the back of their jackets. But this is BS, sorry, this is not 5. You have a choice, you choose to do 4, you choose not to have Aiba there.
This is a fucking bad omen for New Year event. They should not have done that.
But, fine. Who cares. Whatever.
As I said. I am angry. Livid, really.
Anyhow, congrats to Aiba for a job well done. It could have been worse, a lot worse. I am so proud.
I really want to be happy for him.
Okay, a few days have passed. I figure, despite posting the entry in anger, I don't want to change what I wrote earlier anyway. It was what I really felt back then. And if the same thing happens again, I would more likely feel the same. My opinion would still be the same. After all, I looked at what happened on that day from Aiba-as-my-ichiban's POV. Cannot really help thinking all that.
That being said. I was happy seeing the other members being worried about Aiba and trying to support him in many different ways. The scene of Oh-chan kept looking at Aiba while they sang One Love is still repeating in my head over and over again. What a warm, gooey feeling it gives me.
In retrospective, despite the anger and annoyance it had created me, I would remember the night fondly (and in a bittersweet way). It's the night that Aiba got to be a host of Kouhaku - without the support of his friends majority of the time. He probably felt horrid and tortured and super-stressed. But he pulled through. Despite everything, Aiba did it. I am so proud of him.